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A large black cat stares at a man in a suit and top hat practising yoga - oil painting in the style of René Magritte

All the trinkets of my day

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I like that brief pause at the dust jacket flaps
before the serpentine sentences call me
to follow their long stretches and sub-clauses
introduced with all the althoughs, therefores,
and whiles pulled out of the conjunction hat.
I like the cat’s morning yoga for atheist classes
before the obligatory glass of milk-and-water bliss.
I like a furtive one last sniff of the night’s remnants
hidden in my pyjamas before I wrap myself
in the armour of an everyday suit.
And there are a few other trinkets like that,
but the point is, if there is a silver lining to life,
these would be the closest.

A man standing on the bank of a parting river - an oil painting in the style of René Magritte

Like pebbles lying on a riverbank

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There is no point to life or value
beyond that of a pebble lying on a riverbank.
These could only be created between us, but only just,
since all we do is supply the necessary dose of meaning in life
to keep us going—not the meaning of life itself.
And by the way, let’s leave aside any notion of happiness
or morality as distinct concepts (have there been many lives
as meaningful as Judas’, to look no further than Christian mythology?).
So, asking about the meaning of life is, in itself, meaningless.
And as for meaning in life, just think of the paradox
of future individuals.

A man standing in the middle of a river - an oil painting in the style of René Magritte
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people busy with their mobile phones, oil painting in the style of Paul Klee

Rhymester, read thyself

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“You have lost your wits and have gone astray; and, like an unskilled doctor, fallen ill, you lose heart and cannot discover by which remedies to cure your own disease.”
Aeschylus, Prometheus Bound

With mobile phones, we have become accustomed to immediate responses,
so no one wants to wait for anything anymore. Add to that the quality
of our relationships—likely comparable to the nutritional value
of a plastic bowl of instant noodles—and it’s no wonder we are trapped
between the Scylla of solitude and the Charybdis of addiction to dating apps,
ending up lonely one way or another.

Dealing with people sooner or later brings disappointment. I get that.
But we all have our quirks and neglected issues, so maybe it’s time
to stop being harder on others than on yourself.
Give them a chance, and they may pleasantly surprise you,
said the one least likely to read his own words.

oil painting: writer in front of the computer

It’s all about appearance

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Sometimes I have the same dream over and over again,
as if a turntable needle were stuck in the groove of a broken record
that would otherwise be an uneventful night. It wakes me up eventually,
and more often than not, I cannot get back to sleep.

Since tossing and turning makes no more sense than getting out of bed,
I choose the latter, and, trying to avoid the usual squeaky floor concerto,
I walk over to my desk.

To prevent the neighbours’ wrath, I’d rather not touch the typewriter
and settle for my good old friend, the fountain pen—or I would
in the pre-digital era, but sitting in front of a computer screen
doesn’t sound as romantic.

You see, it is all about keeping up the appearance of an artistic vibe.
After all, we are all occasional imposters.

watercolour portrait of mother and daughter

Generations

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Like father, like son, or so they say.
But what if the son has his father’s face
but not his voice anymore? Or a mother
and a daughter, like those I saw once
on the bus while coming back from work.

I was dozing off a bit, but I could still hear
a true Aberdonian teen frantically talking
about some fist-involving drama at school.
But at some point, a mature female voice
with a strong Nigerian accent responded.

Intrigued, I opened my eyes and saw them—
like two peas in a pod, yet different.

oil painting: portrait of a young person with green-blue hair

To be surprised

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I met a girl the other day
at my favourite second-hand film shop, or a boy,
or none of the above. I simply couldn’t tell.
I was baffled, confused, and fascinated.
They look like they’re twenty-ish,
but facial and body features, voice pitch,
unisex clothing style, and hair colour—half blue,
half green—wouldn’t point at any of the two genders
I grew up knowing, although I lean more towards the feminine side.

I know it’s none of my business
and that the world is no longer binary
(it never was; we just swept what we didn’t want
to acknowledge under the rug),
but I can’t stop thinking about them.
It’s like meeting an exotic beauty for the first time
when you can’t take your eyes off her,
even knowing that you look at least idiotic
and maybe even creepy.

If I were half my age, it would probably be a good reason
to ask them out on a date, but in my situation,
I can only marvel at how incredibly beautiful and diverse the world is
and that I am still capable of being surprised by this fact.

watercolour with a red admiral butterfly sitting on a tree branch

An unexpected visitor

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I saw a red admiral today. It sat on a tree branch outside my window.
Butterflies are not frequent guests here. In fact, I can’t recall ever seeing one around,
but I guess that’s the gist of living in a city. I remember that in my childhood
they were everywhere, but it was a different time and place, and we had a garden
that attracted them, the large white in particular because of the cabbage beds.
Perhaps if I went outside the city, to the countryside, to the meadows,
I would have better luck, but it’s so much hassle, I just couldn’t bother.
And it’s probably better that way, to leave nature to itself, intact by my shoe soles,
and every once in a while be surprised by an unexpected visitor.
You learn to appreciate those rare encounters better.

an oil painting of a naked man wearing a hat getting ready to take a shower

It starts with a shower

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No longer one, but not yet another either, I’m stuck in a limbo
where, one by one, the little things of everyday life lose their relevance.
How come, you may ask? It’s quite simple, really. One day, one stays
too late into the night to take a shower, and being a creature of habit,
the next thing one knows, one’s not taking it at all for a week or two.
The same goes for everything else.
And the remoteness of the modern world makes it awfully simple,
because once you take yourself out of the social equation,
such things become basically inconsequential, so why even bother?
But the real problem begins when negligence in trivia spills over
into more fundamental matters. And once a feedback loop fires up,
you are doomed. So better remember about your shower,
or dirty dishes in the sink, or whatever it is you decided to skip
before it all spirals out of control. Mould in a cup with leftover
coffee grounds is one thing, but a debt collector on the doorstep
is a different story entirely.

oil painting with a young woman in a hat sitting on a chair in the sun

I shall never let a penman in my life

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And if I meet you on the plain, during the rain,
in blasted Spain—before I spread my wings—uptight
about the fact you danced all night while I was waiting
for the bright morning’s clarity on what’s right,
then you should know that all your charm is gone already,
like the barm in every demijohn of ale, and you will never lift
my veil—at least that’s how I end this tale.