all the trinkets of the day
When I think about your vulva
between five and six in the morning,
it’s nothing personal since ‘you’ is generic,
and ‘vulva’ is simply a noun—
no different from ‘elbow’ or ‘eyelid’—
just another item in the formal vocabulary,
and more relevant than your vagina,
which I’ve never seen, as I’m not a gynaecologist
but a poet looking for an adequate response
to a misnomer.
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If masturbation turns into a weekly chore
and yet you find yourself more concerned
with the grammatical adequacy of the sentiment
than its implications—where does it leave you?
After all, there was a time an afternoon nap
might have been just an inclination,
but now it’s a must.
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If I cling to the warmth
of the thirteen tog of polyester,
I can avoid the misty windows—
an unmistakable sign of yesterday’s laundry—
for another hour,
unless I can no longer fight
the inconvenience of a morning glory.
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I never had chemo or radiation,
and the excision was swift and frigid,
with a wound festering for months,
but now, six years later, there is not much left—
a tiny scar where the heart is and the bills
that will always remind me of the growth:
amatoria neoplasia.
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ἐπειδήπερ ὅταν μὲν ἡμεῖς ὦμεν, ὁ θάνατος οὐ πάρεστιν· ὅταν δ᾽ ὁ θάνατος παρῇ, τόθ᾽ ἡμεῖς οὐκ ἐσμέν.
Epicurus, Letter to Menoeceus
Whether it’s a casual game of chess on the beach
or a night spent waiting at Helen Rivington House,
when they suddenly say ‘I’m afraid of death’,
people may actually mean they are afraid of dying—
a slippage that’s probably not as bizarre as kissing
in a confession booth to Gesang der Jünglinge
or replacing a cheval mirror in the boudoir
with its Conté sketch à la Seurat,
with one caveat:
you have never tried to explain death
to your kid.
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What a committee is
very much depends on where
and whom you ask, since it could be
a flower arranging committee
at a local church in Little Wallop,
or the Hellsing Production Committee,
or the Committee for Skeptical Inquiry,
or the Norwegian Nobel Committee,
or the People’s Committee of Siam,
or the Committee of Secret Correspondence,
and even the Committee of 300—
yet all I hear is
‘Come E.T.’.
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Is it weird to be an old man?
A few years ago, it would have been—
but now I no longer mind soggy pasta,
and I stay home so I don’t have to worry
about the ‘meant to be’ and simply smile
when I hear ‘Serait-ce possible alors?’.
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I hate people
walking abreast across the pavement
so that they could yap
as if they were taking part
in Sympósion.
Saying that, I feel somewhat embarrassed—
not so much at the sentiment,
but at the excessive solemnity
of the expression.
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If I were to run away, would it be Paris,
the Boulevard du Montparnasse perhaps?
But why not Trifouillis-les-Oies—
or why France in the first place?
Soho or Greenwich Village would suit me better, after all,
even if I never wake up to an indie rock song,
like protagonists in rom-coms, and think that a French film
opening with a typewriter cannot be bad
when played sul tasto to find out if a score
is the music.
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