Tag: pretending to be happy

a clown with his arms raised in a dramatic gesture

An act of happiness

Published on by Maciej Modzelewski1 Comment

How could you not resent happy people when they are so—how to put it—happy
that your teeth hurt? But do not worry; they are not that much different from you.
They are just a tad better thespians. Of course, you can always try hard to change
something, even if only the scenery, hoping that a new scene will make a new act
possible, and the new act will make you a new, hopefully happier person. Perhaps
all you have to do is move elsewhere. The problem is that it is a little like buying
new clothes. They may be fashionable, but you are still naked underneath.

an old man in a hat writes something in a notebook

Writing epitaphs for a man of tedious little insignificance

Published on by Maciej Modzelewski1 Comment

For the future me

As a creature of symbol, bored with the steady pace of every day life, he craved
gestures and milestones marking the progress of his tedious little insignificance
full of wishes of small importance and efforts that did not matter in the slightest.

After many a year, he learned how to pretend so well that he convinced himself
that he was about to be happy. Maybe another step or two, an extra drop of sweat,
or one more bitter bite to swallow—but felicity was there, or so he told himself.

The irony is that in his futile attempt at scoring big once, he actually missed all
the trifles that ultimately each day is made of.