Journal (There were never so many poetasters as now)

“Since Ronsard and Du Bellay have given reputation to our French poesy, every little dabbler, for aught I see, swells his words as high, and makes his cadences very near as harmonious as they: ‘Plus sonat, quam valet.’ [‘More sound than sense’—Seneca, Ep., 40.] For the vulgar, there were never so many poetasters as now; but though they find it no hard matter to imitate their rhyme, they yet fall infinitely short of imitating the rich descriptions of the one, and the delicate invention of the other of these masters.” (from The Essays of Montaigne—Volume 05 by Michel de Montaigne, translated by Charles Cotton)

Reading his words, I wonder what Montaigne would say about the state of poetry in our times, as not only has it evolved in form but it has also democratised, and today in France alone, probably more people write poetry than were educated in that country in his time. But reading this passage, I feel that they are as relevant now as they were then. If I happen to stumble upon a poem, especially one published online, I almost never find any satisfaction in reading it, let alone being impressed, and that’s also why I’ve stopped writing poetry myself. But enough about that because the sun finally came out after the storm Babet, so it’s time to go outside.

Journal (Dissectology)

Every author and every artist has a method. I called mine dissectology—derived from dissectologist, that is, someone enjoying jigsaw puzzle assembly—because the way I worked with words was like putting together a jigsaw puzzle with one fundamental difference—each piece of the puzzle came from a different box.

How did it look in practice? Every time, while reading, watching a film, or having a conversation, I came across a word or phrase that resonated with me—or, as I called it, sounded delicious—I wrote it down in my notebook. Sometimes it took a while, but eventually I had enough material to start playing with it.

At first, it looked like a pile of random words, but my mind quickly started combining them into phrases, then sentences, and at last, there it was—a new poem. Sounds simple, right? But it’s not. Although this is an exception, writing a certain poem took me nine months and required researching the life and work of Martin Heidegger. I joked later that it had been a busy pregnancy with a difficult labour.

And here is the thing: at some point, I felt like a fraud. I wasn’t a creator, but a mere puzzle assembler. True, with a bit of creativity, but in the end, there was no point that I had in mind that I tried to convey with my words—well, not always, as sometimes I actually wanted to say something in particular, but this was the exception, not the norm. Socrates’ words about poets truly reflect the nature of my little play.