I had my first orgasm on the couch in my parents’ bedroom under a shoddy reproduction of the Black Madonna of Czestochowa. I was about twelve and reading a book as usual when I felt this strange tingling sensation in my crotch. Intrigued by an unknown feeling, I reached there with my hand, and when I touched my willy, it started to grow, and each subsequent touch was more pleasant, so I started stroking it until it finally became as stiff as a stick, so I grabbed it in my hand and started rhythmically—well, you know the mechanics of that. I don’t know how, but I instinctively knew what to do. While I was doing this, I kept staring at the face of the Black Madonna, sad as if she were upset because of me and what I was doing. It didn’t take long before an unexpected spasm hit my body, and something unknown gushed forth from the organ that had previously only been used for peeing. And just like that, I discovered that there is more to life than books and grandma’s cream puffs, and that pleasure is laced with guilt.